I have been studying trees so much this rather busy week collecting leaves and wondering about their process of shedding old used leaves,
taking a breather
and then growing new ones..
and why it is that us humans are not following suit.
Can you think about the process further and see the leaves falling, decaying back to the earth and being a clear space by spring, it naturally clears its slate, branches and ground every year.
We make new years resolutions but they are piled upon last years and all the other old stuff we are holding onto, and surely some day it will all have to give..our bodies are small, our brains are large but our cells can only hold so much and the emptier they are of negativity the better we can function and flow.
Hence my rather dramatic, violent and painful Transformation that started with me a year ago exactly this weekend. I was a holder on, I layered and layered so much crap upon crap and never let anything go, when I started to feel panicked and uneasy I just looked around for more to do to take up that idle time that was letting me see inside myself and giving me glimpses of all the pain I was in. My to do list was insane, actually I had lists, lists upon lists of things that were going to make me feel better once I had completed them. But the list never got smaller at all, I would complete one thing and add five more, no body could make me see what I was doing, I hated that others were trying to slow me down when I was obviously on top of my game just getting things done.
As bad or good as a breakthru/down is, I never ever would want to go thru this process again, I now wonder how I survived and didnt die, so that is why I have taken it so head on and are learning from it....My new lesson is
"Being Like the Trees"
It is Autumn here and I am spending time with the trees, collecting leaves that speak to me with their unique beauty, some I write things on, others I just hold as I talk/pray/wish away, all the things that I no longer need to get me thru this year, I will be shedding things so I can have a peaceful winter concentrating on my absolute pure core base. And the less I have inside me the more simple I become and the more simple my surroundings become and I can also go from being upset to content in a much simpler way, my pain body is not grasping at the stores of information stored in my body.
Some leaves I burn, some I crush, some I throw away or bury or just leave back on the ground to decay with the natural seasons.
So is it time to free yourself?? and to let the light flow thru your body more easily??
I read thru blogs and see other women going down my path but I know they would not want to be told anything by a stranger, I just hope that some may recognise my earlier traits in themselves and rethink where their motivation for absolute busyness is coming from. If you cant sit still for, say 4 hours and be peaceful without worrying or planning what to do when you finish relaxing, well that is a little shining light just there. Being able to be still and do absolutely nothing I have learnt, is an achievement equal to a hard days work, and most people will find the relaxing part harder. I always thought it was being Lazy! and I had such issues with lazy people. Thank the heavens that has all gone now. Sorry relaxed people for judging you so harshly! eek! I should have been learning.
Why this post today??, Im not sure, I just had a great bonding weekend with some friends who I love, we opened a shop together for 3 days to sell our creations and made much more than money, we made a connection, something I felt I would never have again after being left with major friendship trust issues, but I am letting people in again and it feels wonderful, so wonderful I cant wait to get outside and find more leaves to let more stuff go and make room for more love.
Let it go people, not everything has to be held and said.
Here is a photo from the girls easter egg hunt yesterday, pure magic, they were so well behaved, it reminded me of a favorite Louise Hay quote.
"I am happy to see other people enjoying prosperity. It is a mirror of my own rich abundance"
There was no competition, just excitement!
These three flower children have such a special bond, and they will grow up knowing all our lessons, surely that means humans can only get better and better as the generations go along. Our teachings of emotional wellbeing are so important...but are we teaching them??
well I will leave you with that
a huge pun intended!
and have fun letting things go
xxx
Sheree